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Hey HI everyone. i know dis topic is realli borin for u guys 'hmmm' but its ma life's worst incident am jus sharing wit u all :(

I actually wrote this blog on myspace before I had another site. I felt I would put it on this one for anyone reading who wants to get to a feel for who I am in different ways other than !!!. There is so much about life and my views on life that I never really have had a chance to write about…and well, I feel this will show some people how I feel about certain things. I am not posting this for anyone to feel sorry for me. That is not my intention. Sometimes I like to read it and remember her. It makes me feel better at times.

I miss my mom.

I felt the need to write this to anyone who will read it. Actually, I just needed to write this for my own personal reasons. It is all probably going to come out in a big mumble-jumble mess, so I guess you can try and make sense of it if you’d like.

I miss my mom. I miss her terribly. This isn’t something that bothers me usually, it’s been almost 9 and a half years that she’s been gone now. I’ve learned to carry on just fine. I don’t get upset when people ask me about my mom, or when I have to tell them that she died. I always hear the “I’m so sorry to hear that’s”, and “I’m sorry I brought it up”. You know I am more than happy when someone brings her up! Sometimes I wish I could just sit and talk about her, tell about what a great woman she was. And you know I could, I could talk about her for hours, and I could tell you the stories I remember and the things I know about her or the stories I’ve heard and continue to hear on occasion. She was crazy. She was caring.She was responsible. She was amazing. But most of all, she was my mom. No one can ever replace a mom. NO ONE. No one can take the place of someone who brought you into this world.the relationship is something you cannot replace.I miss her laugh. I miss her loud mouth. I watch the mothers , take care of theri sons, watch them joke around, watch them yell…it’s something I yearn for.

This is something that does bother me though. There are so many people that I know who do not appreciate their moms, or dads for that matter. Your parents. I know that no one is perfect and trust me on that, if you know my dad you would understand. But after everything my dad has put me through I still love my dad and would never give him up for anyone else. I wish more than anything that I could have my mom back. It hurts me when I hear people saying how they hate their moms because they got into a fight or because their mom may act psycho or maybe their mom just has problems. You need to understand that no one is here forever. Just imagine if your mom or dad died tomorrow. What would you do? It is so important to appreciate what you have and love what you got while it is still on this very earth, because once it’s gone chances are you aren’t going to see them again for a long time.

Please appreciate your mom and dad. It is hard to do I know. I have the same problem. But I promise you hanging out with them, or fighting with them, or laughing with them…it is all worth it. Spend time. Laugh. Live. Enjoy it while they are here.

"I would do anything to see my mom one more time. Just to talk to her, just to touch her. But I know she is watching over me, taking care of me still. I feel her every day. I know she is there. But it’s hard. Really hard. I know I’ll see her again one day".

Sorry for all this rambling, and I’m sorry if I come off as a bit preachy. But i can’t help it.

Actually she expired coz of kidney problem. Doctors could have helped her but unfortunately instead of doctors who shud give her de treatment students from ramaiah college did the experiment and killed her.she had got an operation of kidney transplantation and she was fine and l8r wen she used to take de powerful tablets her teeth started decaying and then we took xray's and went for the check up. As mom was operated and coz of taking powerful tablets she had sugar.The doctors dint cum for de check up instead the students came and removed her teeth witout checkin BP & Sugar.When Human has sugar yu shud'n take the teeth or operate but these bastard doctors and students ma mom is no more :( but i feel everything has happnd yesday... tough days , have to struggle.

oh and one more thing…

this was just something that i had to get out and something i wanted to write. please dont feel sorry for me…because i am doing ok. i dont want anyone to feel sorry for me because i am not that type of person. i just wantted to share something so people will understand where i am coming from and possibly learn from it.

Hmmm and wen i tell ppl tat am feeling lonely they missunderstand me witout knowing the reason.(dream catchers)

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"νιηαу รυßßαιαн"

"why valentine's day sucks"

"why valentine's day sucks"
by “νιηαу ѕυввαιαн”
who is this "st. valentine" guy anyway? catholics claim he was third century roman priest who conducted marriages in secret even though marriage was prohibited by emperor claudious ii. others say he was beheaded for being a christian. roman historians believe that the febuary holiday is to celebrate their god lupercalia after he drove the wolves away. the french believe that valentine was a monk who brought two massacred children back to life.
so let me see if i understand this. sometime around 1500 years ago there may have been a priest or monk or roman god that married soldiers, joined a cult, scared away dogs, or resurrected kids. what exactly does that have to do with naked angels firing arrows and stuffed animals holding flowers? and how did hallmark use this to decree that we spend at least one day a year feeling miserable and inadequate?
those sitting at home lonely and depressed on febuary 14th are the lucky ones. in a world that deems your self-worth to be based on a heterosexual relationship, preferably in marriage, single people have plenty of opportunities to feel like societal failures without having their situation pointed out, highlighted, and spelled out in neon letters. even the people that are happy being single are pressured into reevaluating their situation. but for the recently dumped, divorced, or widowed the weight of their pain doubles. sounds like a groovy reason to celebrate to me!
the only thing worse than being alone on valentine's day is being in a relationship. jewelry ads encourage you to go spend your grocery money on some gaudy ring or bracelet that will probably be forgotten in less than a year. the pressure to have the perfect date is overwelming, not to mention that all good restaurants and baby-sitters have been booked a month in advance. add on top of that the need to find the perfect present and it's no wonder that more couples fight on this "love day" than get lucky.
Are teddy bears, roses, and candy really the only way to show someone that you care? do we even need a holiday to say the "i love you" words? face it, anyone who needs a calendar to force them to act romantic for one night doesn't deserve to be in a relationship. i say that roses on a tuesday night for no special occasion are a million times more sweet than the box of fattening chocolate in febuary. i, for one, intend to spend this evening watching tv and not stressing over anything other than what brand of macaroni and cheese to make for dinner. i have enough excuses to feel sorry for myself or fight with or get some from my significant other, i don't need some dead roman guy or a huge display at the grocery store helping me along.